Does anybody remember that episode of “Friends” where Rachel and Phoebe went to get tattoos, and Phoebe chickened out after only one blue dot? Later, she told everyone, “This is a tattoo of the earth as seen from a great distance. It’s the way my mother sees me from heaven.”
That’s how truly insignificant we are, isn’t it? Tiny little specks on a tiny little dot. Actually, in the grand scheme of everything, we’re probably even less significant than that. It can be kind of hard to imagine how a great big God sees us tiny little specks, can’t it?
But then I come across one of my favorite verses. (I know. I have a lot of favorite verses.) It came to me again this week as I was studying, and it struck me all over again.
Then King David went in and sat before the Lord and said, ‘Who am I, O Lord God, and what is my house, that you have brought me thus far?'” –II Samuel 7:18 (ESV)
Who am I? I’m a tiny little bit of dirt, unworthy of anything. And yet… God has brought me so far. Have you ever stopped to catalog all that God has done for you? This morning, I tried, and the list just kept getting longer and longer. It’s so much longer than forgiveness and salvation, although those are definitely, without a doubt, the undisputed top two.
There’s deliverance from fear. There’s my marriage and my daughter, neither of which would have existed without his intervention. There’s my grandmother’s house, which we were only able to buy thanks to a series of miracles. There is so much more. I could list all day long. And when I start listing, it drives me to my knees.
Who am I? Who am I that the Lord God Almighty would do one single solitary thing for me? Who am I that He would care when I cry? That He would comfort? That He would heal? Who in the world am I?
I’m a tiny speck on a tiny speck. But that doesn’t matter a bit to Him. Because to Him, I’m everything. YOU’RE everything. Do you get it? You. Are. Everything. To. Him. Whether it feels like it or not. Hard to grasp, especially when the world is churning, but it’s true. His eye knows every single hair on your head. Get that. He cares so much that He cares when one hair falls out. I’m not sure my heart and mind are big enough for that.
But I’m going to pray He helps me understand. How about you?